From 3 to 33 Pt 2 Is it a test or Just a Mess?

Before you read this , I would like to say that I am human and this is my journey toward my desired success. I will have ups and downs. I will have successes and failures on my way to my goal. Having said that, the let go of the mouse week was a bit rough. We continued it for a second week and still no results. No guidance which brings us to today.

So to bring you up to speed, last week some friends of mine and I decided to start a prayer group. We decided to meet in the mornings at 7 am. We would get up at 7 , go to a quiet space in our homes and pray for five minutes. The idea being that we would be able to call on God to help us. You see, in the Christian faith it is said that if two or three agree together God has promised to be there. So we decided to give it a shot. You see we were and are all going through some tough times and wanted to seek out help from God. So we began what we called "The Experiment".

We prayed together/apart every morning for the week. Now I know a week is not a long time but we needed an answer immediately. We all prayed for direction. We wanted to know what we were suppose to do to reach our goals and desires. Nothing happened. So we did it again f the following week. Still nothing. All of the people that I look to for guidance had the same advice for me. "You are being tested."

You see this year I decided that I wanted to help motivate people to go after and achieve their dreams. So I started doing audition and acting workshops to help actors and singers take their careers to the next level. We had three group classes and seven students. Total! On top of that it seemed like everything that I touched failed. I could not figure it out. No matter how hard I tried no matter how much research I did I failed. My friend J. said "This is a test. You have not gone through any trials. You can't go to be a life coach with the story of - "Yes all you have to do is meditate, and think good thoughts and everything should work out. Heck I did that and manifested my self a Broadway Show in three auditions. If I can do it you can too."

Now when I talked to my parents about this the response was to "Let Go and Let God." So after three months of trying to let go and one month of actually doing it I must say I am a little worn out. This sent me on a whole mind trip that I am sure many of you all go through. The ego began it's monologue.

"There isn't a God. People make this all up so they don't have to be responsible."

"The ancient Indian cultures believe we are God. So get it together and make it happen."

"How can you say that. You know, That is why nothing is happening. You don't believe in God."

"Don't be silly you do believe in God just not God as some great overseer."

You get the Idea. This week it's "What the heck." I am lost! However, I have to say that it is a lot nicer to be lost with positive thoughts going through your head like:

"You're right on track. Everyone who is where you want to go has gone through this time. The trick is to keep going."

That is what I finish all of the thoughts with no matter what. Sorry about this week. It was kind of a rambling blog. But this week was kind of a rambling blog. I thought that it would be good to document this time just like I would and will document the successful times.

Yours in Success

Troy